I need my drive.

Though i consider myself a strong independent person, i find it hard to find the strength and independence when facing with unwanted problems in life...all i want to do is scream in a bucket filled with water so no one else can hear...1st my fan broke down, then my lappie now is giving me unwanted problems...then...my phone went through a screen revolution, and i lost most of my friend's number..it's life ordeal that u just have to face...like they say..if u dun have stress..ur not humane enough perhaps...cause i guess if i dun handle it...i might as well retire and stay home like my two retired grandparents...following strict schedules of pension depending life..rrrriiiggghhhtt..wat the fuck am i talking about..i dun even have savings yet!

Life is life...and i need my drive back...i seem to slip away into realms of fantasies...i need to be back on track on my fucking major project....or i'm doomed....