Remembering Remembrance.

Lying on my back, watching the tales of life...screening from the back of my mind..From that painful catharsis...you lead me into a realm of untold secrets..a decision i made only to note revenge and protect a wounded soul..once kept in the closet,now i decided to show it off on the dressing table...the vain contradictions of words that you muttered before...i asked..do u know where your heart is? do you think you can find it? or is it that this poor soul has to find it for you? No,not me..never again...

When happiness is made, there is always room for sadness...you climb up so high, you got to climb back down again...jump maybe?..maybe not..Hypocrisy is such a common thing...you don't need to try and explain..just keep it..i rather listen to the sound of music than your self-contradicting words...

Ouh sweet drug...you help me sleep when i need it...those leftover sleeping pills from that saddistic moment when you left...the time when i troubled myself to keep on going..the time when my heart beat so fast it needs drugs to be calmed down..The time when i thought life was over for me...

The heart is still in pain...I thought i'm happy...But on some days when i'm lying on my back watching my mind....the pain is still heart felt...i realised..my heart is still within the wall of it's own hospital....