A note on my previous post.

I just realise how my previous post actually like hit on so many people. If you've been reading my blog religiously, then you'll understand who I'm talking about. It's not about you or you or you back there..Let me get you there, if ur name doesn't start with a Y, then sorry, but it's not you honey....

Put that record on.

You Really think i care? You think i’m bothered by the things that’s happening in ur life? Ouh plesease! I got better perspectives on things. If you think by that means of yours going through those rummages makes you feel better..So go on! Im not stopping you! You think i pity you?! I definitely do. Too bad though, I feel much better now that you’re gone honey! And boy! That girl’s nothing compare to me! Like Duh.
*Watching my mind playing the old dusty tapes.*

Euphoria vs Money?

Draw! Draw more! Draw! Draw! Draw!

Happening again~~

I just can't seem to find the drive...Shaiza....

The Art & Design of Food.

White Rabbit was orgasmic! The food and ambience was beyond words! Had a complimentary Moscato by the manager . I had the Full course Set which cost us about $300++ . A true art and design of food within the gastronomical dining experience.

** Image above done by Shaiy for Republic Poly Culinary Group

Flower Delivery

I decided that the blog layout previously sucks cause there's no way anyone can read my past postings. Anyway had a bouquet of flowers delivered to work by the girl-friend with a card that says I'm sorry.. Well you better be honey! No one shouts at Shaiy for nuthng!

*Shaiy hates DRAMA!

Life..

As usual, been busy with work...especially this week...a lot of confirm projects ahead...really no time to hang out with friends nor family...500 days of summer with kidd last week really reminded me of me and someone...so much similarity.. a lot of meaning...it shows how everyone on earth is born in such imperfections..dilemma and all... but life has to move forward...

Been to SGH a lot these days since my uncle is in ICU...blood clot and tumor in the brain...hope everything's going fine...can't help but to tear when I was there looking at him with life support on him,lying motionless on the bed...

I miss spending time with you now that I'm busy with work and you with yours.....I hope everything is going good on ur side babe...

Pimp my Room...

I've been busy with work, so on Friday, i decided to pimp my room..did it on impulse..i think more can be done with...till i find more time....enjoy my noir sophistication!

Missing...

For I know I dont have any drive to get to know anyone...though i miss to love and be love...for i miss late night phone calls that replace sweet lullabyes...for i deem to miss and be missed..for i am married to something and not someone...for only i can stop people asking me, where's ur special someone? Another single Aidilfitri...Sad...but not really...=)

A trip to the zoo!

Well..this is the best weekend ever with Vai...Salmon sandwhich by the mandai reservoir..animals look and see...vai was wet because of some animals..had to changed...fish spa was ticklish....well..everything was a blast! That Saturday was awesome! No words can describe....so here are some pics...=)

Pizza Hut Dinner

Mum was too tired too cook...and i was too occupied with tv that i didn't cook as well...so we went to the new pizza hut new hut around our place...We had sweet and spicy wings, a regular pan super supreme, a regular pan thai seafood and garlic breads..yummeh... but unfortunately, i didn't snap a pic of it..when i realised, we had already devoured our meal..Ouh and as you can see....i finally get the hang of changing my blog!! cheers!

Dental Check up

Went to the dentist today for my check up after I took off my braces 8 months ago. Dentist say, "your teeth is good, it didn't shift back..so come back the next 6 months okay.." I thanked him and went out, short and sweet the appointment was. Mum and me made our way to KFC and we had what else but Chickies..

Drived home and decided to do some gardening at our front porch..So far we have, Lemon grass, Basils, Parsley, Rosemary, Tumeric Leaves, Chili padi and I don't know what other spices mum had planted....Zoo on the weekends was fun..will update pics soon....tata..

I Nail it!

Congratulations and celebrations....

Who whould think that the first company that you sent ur resume out to is actually hiring you?
And yes! I nail it!!
After the short meet up with the Managing Director, the creative manager brought me around the office..met with almost all the employees there..very nice people, very huge office..and mind you..i was in heels...walk around the place to see every department..Overall, it is a great place to work at..very nice bosses..

Starting work in Aug...my holidays are officially over babeh!! Maybe i shall get a weekend getaway....hrmmm...I shall..I shall...=)

Career choices.

Well I'm currently waiting for MOE yet to reply again on my application after the first stage gone by. Fellow mates says it'll take a few months to process. Well in the mean time, i don't want to rot at home and do nothing..so, i applied for a design company that dad had recommended...went to their website..not bad...they do events,window displays, runway platforms, exhibitions and what nots..they actually did the interior fit for Nat Geo at vivo city! cool shit yaw! I applied that thursday night after i got so much nagging from dad the days before to start working or rot at home and hope not to die. I got the reply the very next day after applying the job online the night before..the person was asking me if im able to come for an interview that day..(hell no! i haven't prepare my portfolio yet....i thought these people will take time to reply..hahah...oh well..). Then they asked if my saturday was free and so i said yeah. That very friday night...i tidied up my works and compiled them together... Went for the interview in the morning and aced it..the creative director was quite impress with my write ups on the resume i sent them, the way i converse and of course my works. Meeting both the boss and creative director tomorrow for a 2nd interview.. Hope alls well ends well.. So do i want to get apples? Or freebies from events and exhibitions such as Dior..u guess?.. I'm still holding back that bit of passion to teach..but after all...they are giving me a much much better pay then teaching does( if i got it,that is)..and i'm well taught in the design industry...why not make full use of it right? For now.. I shall be in what i know best...who knows when im well experience i can start to lecture? Insya'Allah..*Grins*

Happy 20th Birthday Sis!

Well...my shout out goes to my beloved sister Nur, celebrating her 20th birthday today...the cake u see here, is actually 3 slices of bread covered in nutella and surrounded by ferreros...the funny part was i wanted to surprise her after realising it was 12.30 am...and both of us were fb-ing at that point of time,so i went down to make her this...15 mins later when i went up..she has gone to lala land...-.-

An eventful birthday.

Where it begins...

The Executive Suite

The complimentary birthday cake from the hotel.

The 22 Helium Balloons

Posing with my balloons.

The Jellybeans (damn nice!)

At the lounge area

Masquerading

Salmon-Carviar-Zuchinni...

Cirie with the guestbook.

They playing uno.

Salmon-Carviar-Zuchinni...marvellous!

Me and my love ones...

Guest

Guests

Us ready to cut the $120 birthday cake from Patisseire..

A happy 22nd birthday for me....

Thanks to all who came, thanks to my most lovable friend feed for organising this party for me...it was the most awesomic,orgasmic event i've ever imagine...and thank u all for the presents..

*Some photos on this post credits to Shahrom Shahz.*

It's my Party and I french if i want to!

Well...lately been bumming around and trying to finish cleaning my room..those school stuff since o level time needs to be cleared off..2 more days to moi birthday extravaganza...thank you fit for oragnising such a good one...hope nothing bad will turn up...received a letter from MOE, regarding my application...so excited! for those of u turning up, here's a sneak peak of the menu:

éntree Caviar de Salmon canapé Escargot Main course Seafood Garlic Pasta Black pepper lamb shank Honey roasted wings Dessert Macaroons Cakes n what nots


Since the theme is Twisted French Loyalty, the menu will be a bit twisted too..see ya!!

Renewing

Hey...it's been quite a while since i blog due to the wrapping up and closure of my education journey...Alhamdulillah with God's will I managed to obtain my Bachelor of Arts with Honours.
Since the last update, a lot of things have happened in my life and one post won't conclude what had gone by.

I realised I have been single for almost a year now and till this day, I have not found the right one. It's a shame that I can't grasp upon chances that certain people have given me and promises that was promised. Maybe it's just the fact that I can't get over my past and that it still lingers when I'm not present in reality. Or maybe I'm just not ready. I'm sorry if i have hurt anyone in my quest to find a match made in heaven...but the thing is..maybe it only will happen when I'm there..*shrugs*

On another note, I've been dreaming a lot about my ex lately and it's quite irritating.

Hey people!

hey babes! was thinking of writing a so call online book, chapter by chapter every month..tell me your views on Leave a Say! thanks!

Wardrobe malfunction?

Freedom of speech, i shall give a piece of my speech then, keyboard as my tool, i shall type whatever i feel that is burning inside of me right at this moment, parental advisory? nay...maybe fashion police? nay...not even close to fashion trends,moreover high fashion...goodnesss for goodness sake!!! change your frigging wardrobe dude!!!

You're with a new babe, doesn't she for a lil bit pamper you with some shoping spree...goodness, you should throw away down the clothes with the memories dude...i saw you with the same pants..the pants that i sew you the day it got torn during the gig, the topman t-shirts i bought you after school..thinking he needs new clothes..the united colors of benetton shirt i bought you, i know it fits perfectly...but doesn't she buy u new clothes for goodness sake????? is she pampering herself too much that she forgot the one she or the one that love her so dearly is wearing the things his ex bought??

and for goodness sake..i need my frigging fossil watch back dude.....it's been months now...u want to wait for years maybe?? wait...i don't need that watch, it has become fossil down with the memories we had...down with the things we shared, maybe someday someone will frigging dig those fossils back..but for now..who cares? it's just bones...

Femme Fatale

The phrase is French for "deadly woman". A femme fatale tries to achieve her hidden purpose by using feminine wiles such as beauty, charm, and sexual allure. Typically, she is exceptionally well-endowed with these qualities. In some situations, she uses lying or coercion rather than charm. She may also be (or imply to be) a victim, caught in a situation from which she cannot escape.

Serve her right this femme fatale then..but i believe in the current world we are living in, feminine wiles is an enigma. What about those with masculine charm? You know, a man trap in a woman's body...those that makes every girl weak in their knees..wait let me rephrase that, makes every "femme" or whoever weak..

I feel life is short to be dramatic about and that, we should leave what we think is not important to be lingering and yakking about..in my deep thoughts on my way home last night..i was questioning myself what female category do i belong to?

The independent oreo cookie, the "i still have mum to feed me", or the traditional,or more malayanized bunch of females..in simpler vocabulary for those who don't get it..Minah nyah...

I feel i'm a bit of everything, cause firstly, i do want to be abreast with the current world expectation of humanization,and that i still have my parents around to care,judge,nag,love and e.t.c..

On some days when every other girl i know wears shorts and t-shirt to bed, i still prefer the butterfly gown my mum bought me and the batik sarong that never fails to challenge me in knotting it..

A friend thought i was a minah,times when apparently i was talking and sitting beside one..When there's minahs around you, you got to try hard to talk like them cause if not, they'll be like judging you and saying things like "rambut hitam,kulit gelap nak step ong putih pulak...menyampah aku siol..takleh angkat"...Like they say, if you're a good social person, you'll try and be in their shoes (even though sometimes it doesn't fit)..

well people,i think the minah phenomenon needs to have a revolution, why not be a minah with a solid background, a minah that seeks knowledge, a minah that never fail to give up on life even though you're bless with 3 unwanted pregnancy? (for goodness sake, use protections)..a minah that has goals in life and not to live day by day as it is? Why not make minah a positive word rather than a comeback strings of negative perceptions...Cause until all minahs out there change, i rather associate myself with the kuno Malays...

Right on...if that makes you happy..my lips are sealed..*sewing lips together*

Will the real slim shady please stand up!

Things could have been different if u make an effort...I realised where i stand despite the fact that feelings make people go crazy or wild...not me not i..I tend to keep my feelings well under control and not let small little stuff hinder the path call "Friendship"..

I felt my world swirling with a bit of heart ache when i saw things happening and words uttered before my very eyes..I know feelings are solitary emotions, hrmmm..maybe at the corner of my heart..it still does exist?...but the friendship and the sisterhood built is just too much to be jeapordized..

You put in a lot of effort, you don't need to throw everything down the drain...i know i handle my maturity very well and that good friends will always be taken good care of..

And like i said...i know where i stand....

I need my drive.

Though i consider myself a strong independent person, i find it hard to find the strength and independence when facing with unwanted problems in life...all i want to do is scream in a bucket filled with water so no one else can hear...1st my fan broke down, then my lappie now is giving me unwanted problems...then...my phone went through a screen revolution, and i lost most of my friend's number..it's life ordeal that u just have to face...like they say..if u dun have stress..ur not humane enough perhaps...cause i guess if i dun handle it...i might as well retire and stay home like my two retired grandparents...following strict schedules of pension depending life..rrrriiiggghhhtt..wat the fuck am i talking about..i dun even have savings yet!

Life is life...and i need my drive back...i seem to slip away into realms of fantasies...i need to be back on track on my fucking major project....or i'm doomed....

Remembering Remembrance.

Lying on my back, watching the tales of life...screening from the back of my mind..From that painful catharsis...you lead me into a realm of untold secrets..a decision i made only to note revenge and protect a wounded soul..once kept in the closet,now i decided to show it off on the dressing table...the vain contradictions of words that you muttered before...i asked..do u know where your heart is? do you think you can find it? or is it that this poor soul has to find it for you? No,not me..never again...

When happiness is made, there is always room for sadness...you climb up so high, you got to climb back down again...jump maybe?..maybe not..Hypocrisy is such a common thing...you don't need to try and explain..just keep it..i rather listen to the sound of music than your self-contradicting words...

Ouh sweet drug...you help me sleep when i need it...those leftover sleeping pills from that saddistic moment when you left...the time when i troubled myself to keep on going..the time when my heart beat so fast it needs drugs to be calmed down..The time when i thought life was over for me...

The heart is still in pain...I thought i'm happy...But on some days when i'm lying on my back watching my mind....the pain is still heart felt...i realised..my heart is still within the wall of it's own hospital....

You're my favourite drug.

I shall think i need to go for rehab soon...the amount of your presence prescribed on me is under dosage. Cause your drug is so addictive, i'm having an addiction...and for if i escape rehab, i think i'll be caught up with the addiction..

All that is playing on and on in my head, is the time we've spent together, the care i'm giving u, the countless conversation we had, the wrestling in bed, the morning breakfast, the casual simple lunch break occasions and those crazy things we always say or do...the bullshits,the swears, the getting ons with each other's ass...those relationship problems we shared, those advices, those stories...

When ur sleeping, all i want to do is cuddle with you and rock you like a little baby...when you're so stress, all i want to do is take all your problems away...but still, all i want to do, is to be a friend to you, cause to think otherwise is impossible....

The absence of your presence is heart felt...i miss you already tho we part only hours ago...don't tell me i'm falling for you...cause it'll be so wrong....

Got to check in fast, cause babe, ur my disease....

The Fence.

Walking around in my head,I walked far and felt something immense,
Turning around, you stood there beyond the fence,
I walked nearer to sense your scent,
but still im on the other side of the fence,
Is it built for division or for defence?
Or is it there just to make my life a dense?

What gives what helps the intuition within me?
The cognition of love that coincides within thee,
The presence of absence that belittles around me
The absence of your presence left me empty,
The love felt is it unlikely?

You chose poetry over prose,
Facts that was seen only in your post,
I know i've not been revealing my most,
But have you ever think of the words you've chose?

Came along a heatwave, a merciful save
I'm hush now, trying not to crave,
My heart is weak i'm trying to be brave,
This is just how my heart is trying to behave.

And still I can't seem to be on the other side,
it's seems so hard which ever way i tried,
it seems the fence was misapplied.
How much more time before this feeling died?

For now,i'm just sitting on the fence,
to climb down back to my past
or jump to where i saw you last...
but still all this is happening in my mind,
i'm walking in it and hope the answers i'll find...

My "bimbotic" work

Well just finished my semestral exam. FYP next...life is effin hard nowadays...going for that scholarship though..enjoy my "bimbotic" works...

"Model"

The Lounge

The internet booth

The "bunk-beds"

*i'm still trying to post my trip pictures...hold on a bit more yeah...hahaha*