It won't be soon before long...

3 days i've been really down... Down with sickness of all sickness... i can't believe im facing this problem... it's even tough to write nowadays without shedding a tear.. The amount of it, god knows how much... astargfirullah.... When to the doctor and found out a lot of things about what illnesses im facing... She ended with a lot of advices, i just look at her with a blank face and nodded at every single word she said.. shocked perhaps... the medication for my heart seems to be helping... it's the so called perk me up, mood enlightenment pill that makes me hard to breath and the anxiety coming back.. 26 september i've to go for an X-tray... To check my pelvic area whether there's nothing wrong with my ovary and fellopian tube... Dear friends, please pray for me.. for only that i am hoping for... to be well again.. for now, i am crumbling...

The Dead Girl

you lie right there
so calm, so quiet
your heart has stopped
there is no riot

your hands- so soft
your face- so white
there's no more gasping
in the dark lonely night

your earrings on
only a position it stayed
when you used to laugh
it always swayed

your hair- so limp
no longer flowing
your heart is empty
no longger beating

your feet are still
they move no more
your cries have died
they no longer sore

you're far away
the war has ceased
and in god's arms
i hope you rest in peace...