Parachute.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya To All my muslim friends!

All good things in life

Work has been tough this Ramadhan, been getting a lot of new project and trying to nail a 1/2 million dollar project is super tough. Hope the Al-Mighty will help me through this. Belum cuba belum tahu. The bosses are counting on me. So far I'm all talking but not had yet go through the presentation process. Alhamdulillah we passed the initial stage, so now just left with the convincing of the upper management process. Really need to get down to that presentation process Shaiy...

Other than that i lost 6 kgs in the past month..yeay! Got to get use to the work out sessions and die die must go. If not, I'll definitely gain back those kgs. Life has been good alhamdulillah..been performing my duties as best as possible...Sometimes ada malas jugaklah...but I shall persevere through this.

Alhamdulillah, the effort paid off, they gave me a 15% raise of my current salary after working a year with the company. Though sometimes I feel like giving up and not work. Times when you just feel like sleeping in on a work day. ( sleeping late is not good.)

Thank You Allah for all the good things in life.

Chapter 23 : Life is full of colours.

Life has been good Alhamdulillah...Obstacles are there, I just need to overcome with courage and guidance. Having someone that you can count on to guide you through this very life is superb. I thank Allah for making me realise the mistakes I've done and the opportunity to repent. I thank him for making me realise that the only person that I was waiting for in life was right there all along. I guess the patient paid off. The 1 year courtship knowing you actually meant something. The arguments, the sarcasm the I don't bother at all anymore paid off. To the point that even though we decided to call the courtship off, it went on again unnoticed. Physicality is so far not important in my life, I've never judge a person through the outlook. I always give chances to people to prove themselve to go beyond their looks. Well I guess looks don't really matters to a certain extend of course.

Every single day of this Ramadhan has made me realized how I grew this past 2 years since tragdey strucked. From an immature to a more mature person. Like I said before, Immaturity only leads me to a better learning of maturity. I thank friends who stick through thick and thin with me no matter what life has to offer. Personally has to credit the Bestie for only she understands through and thorugh how I feel.

To my moment of life where I actually go beyond the book. It is a lesson well taught and well learnt. To all the people whom I've known during this period of time, You have all been wonderful great friends. I apologize for making this chapter of Wainbow & Wabbits rather short. When the parents found out, I just couldn't do anything anymore. All I can do is to stray away. I thank you for the beautiful colourful things that you have given me in life and I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. As long as the wrong feels right, I pray that you will find the path again whatever orientation you are. God love every single one of us.

Ameen.

Mak kata.

Mak kata jangan main dengan api, nanti rumah terbakar...

Mak kata jangan ketawa banyak banyak, nanti menangis...

I am...I am...

I'm A Thief.
You see I'm a thief, who snatch things with consent,who break into someone's heart and take only what's given.I try not to give,Cause I know someday I will leave.I try not to take, and act all fake.If you stay, I hope it wont be with dismay,If you decides to leave someday, I will not stop and say "Don't go away".Even when you look into my eyes and say you love me,I know in the end, like others we will never be.Though I will embrace the love that you've given me,and not pawn it for anything earth can give me,I'll say I love you when I mean it,I'll be there for you in whatever you need.I'm apologizing first and I'll apologize later,So you'd be ready and won't get more sadder,Let's take things slowly,Cause honey, I'm not leaving that early.-Shaiy-

You want my future, you can't have it.

Shape shifting occurs under a curse or a spell. Heart shifting occurs under the influence of people.

The reason why I left, I'm sure is known public. I know dissapointment happens. It happens to everyone of us. I still remember when we were in the noughties, it was almost a difficult part of life i've to endure. The heartaches, the dissapointments, the piety moments, the darkness, the drunkness, the sleepless nights, the drugs, the fags, the impulses, the crying, now the crying, it was a torture. The sickness, the pity, the sadness, the frustrations, the revenge, the shield, the fuck-ed up moments, the I need to be strong moments, the I so hate guys right now moments, the friday moments, the saturday nights, the anger, now the anger was overwhelming. The didn't give a damn moments, the down moments. Then Happiness came, Then happiness went. Then happiness comes again, but to no where. How can I live with that? If I were to continue, all of the above mention will occur again.

I need a change, I don't need all this.

I need to live up to my quote of " Yesterday I was weaker than today and tomorrrow I shall be stronger than ever.."

I need this, You know I need this. Badly.