Subtle Bitching.

I don't feel like doing this to myself anymore. The subtle condescending notions of the other party is a dagger. It makes me respire every time the thought of it appears on my mind. I got to comply to the rules of nature, but sometimes, the urge is too much to handle. I couldn't agree to the thought that I'm married but single at the same time. Is it true that I'm just wasting time in the scene? Or is it that I am what I am, and others just got to live with it. Who are you to judge what I want in life? You're not any superior than me either. I suggest you leave me alone.

You're just not good enough to achieve it. So live with it. Bitch.

The truth lied.

If only I can read minds, I don't need to wonder about what people real thoughts are. The things they blurt out is often faster then the real things that is going on in their mind. Be it good or bad. Sometimes we just tend to think that the best is to protect the status of things and not tell the whole truth. They say the truth hurts, but to what extend does the truth hurts that it has to lie. I conform to the point that we all need to tell the truth to someone sometimes, but have you think how true is your truth?

IF only we all have the guts to establish a means of platform where we can google each's truth feelings and thoughts, it will do wonders or it'll backfire.

I conclude, lies are genuinely lies but the truth, sometimes lied.

With Permission.

Good Lord, I've been hurting myself, I've been hurting my love ones and most of all, I've been hurting you. I thank you for the wealth of happiness and strength you gave me. Please give me the courage to face all my fears. If he's the one, I pray that you give me the serenity to provide and change. I know I've been really bad as your slave for only I care was to serve myself and not you. I went against all odds and even crossed the lines you've drawn. For only I want is to be a better slave for you. For only I need is someone that can guide me through this. You know what's in my heart, you know what's going on in my head. For only I need is for the betterment of my family and the betterment of myself and my environment. I go through this for only if you want me to go through it, even if it's a test. Dear Lord, You know how I feel deep inside. You know every inch of my thoughts and every plans Im making for my future. I hope you've given me the best that you can give. For I know that's what you've always done. All I want is to be a better follower of the Phrophet and your slave. Insya'Allah. Ameen.

What did i do wrong?

I guess I was misunderstood yet again. *Shaiza*

Tangiblings.

As wished, I got a purple TODS bag. Weeeee....

I got myself a Wii..Got another Wii for my Rayyan.

I got myself two beautiful darling kittens which already cost me $1.3k

I got myself SK skin products which totally broke my card in two. (Mum says you need to start using these things after you've reached 22 years.)

Things pending on getting.

My Nikon Digital Single Lens Reflex camera.

A Macbook Pro. / iMac.

A new 32GB black iphone to replace my current one. I'm not buying blackberries for now. Period.

A trip to New York.

My designer Egg chair.

Ouh on another note, I got into a silly accident which left my new bought Nokia E71 as a back up phone screen shattered into pieces. Went to dinner at simpang bedok with friends, place my wallet and phone (thank god i wasn't using my iphone at that point of time) on the car bonnet. Then guess what, we drove off. We only realized when we heard something drop and when the driver said, oh my god! oh my god! your wallet is outside on the bonnet! Instantly, My face when pale! I was like, Oh my fucking god! My heart felt we were driving in a Ferrari with a 200km/hr speed on a race track when we were only in a Savvy with a 50 km/hr speed on a road somwehere in bedok. Luckily i found where my phone had dropped and the screen shattered. So i need to replace the screen. That's about it. I know, I'm silly. So Sue me.

Kiki & Lala

*Blow* *Blow*. Dusty alrdy.

Well, a short update, I love LALA and I'm soon going to love KIKI too...

LALA is a Ragdoll Mix Siberian. Bought her at $800

Full Name: Lalablu
Age: 2 1/2 months

Eye colour:Blue
Her colour : Seal Point cream coat.
Temperement: Loving, Very active.

KIKI is a Cross Flat face and doll face persian.
Full Name: Kiki Monchichi

Age: 7 weeks
Eye colour: -
His Colour: White with Black. Buying him at $550
Temperement: Will update once I have him.


I love love love...Can't wait wait wait.

Make it work.

I'm trapped in a stampede of voices inside my head. The box is locked, and I can't seem to find the key to the voices. The voices that escapes me are the ones without soul. Now I'm far away from my throat. My throat seems to be only breathing. And my breath full of gasp. This down only gets lower. My soul not wanting to be disturb only drowns itself in the sea of souless voices. The stampede of voice gave me a choice,
"Make it work, or soon you shall be in destruction."