Project Runaway Competition.

I wonder if i have time for this...

My weekend retreat!! @ Leonie Studio

The greatest weekend ever! thanks to Cik Ahmad for the accomodations of his superb condo...the swimming pool was awesome...the fact that me an Azua swam at 10 at night...super quite..super relaxing...then ordered Pizza hut...took it to the 24 storey lounge and ate it with 360 degrees view of orchard...Subhanallah....the view...Talk a lot with my beloved cuzin about what has been happening to me lately....she keep on asking me to be strong and forget about things...sorry gal, i cried talking to u about things...And C. Ahmad gave me a Salvatore Ferragamore (incanto) Gift bag!!! thanks uncle!...he always gets this freebies from SIA..cause simply he's a chief steward..yeay! new parfume for me and some facial stuff!...Been a great and wonderful weekend Alhamdulillah.. If it's not for the break up..i think i wont enjoy this privilege...thanks Azua...appreciate it a lot from the bottom of my heart...and again im saying this... I love u....**winks**....Nevertheless...i will love to share some off the pics with u....others were just simply us cam hogging...so..i dare not put it up here..haha.. Enjoy!

My weekend retreat!! @ Leonie Studio

My belove Cuzzie! Azua!

This is what 5 Days of not eating proof to be fatal...

View From The 20th Storey!

View of orchard from our room!

View of Orchard-Spot Marriot and Taka!

View Again...

Our Guest Room Extravaganza!

Trying to keep it tidy for a moment..ahakz!

Night View from The Toilet Balcony...yes...the toilet u saw in the room just now..has a balcony looking at this view..


My Cuzin tangkap Emo...

I tangkap Burung...

This is taken from the toilet bath tub...yes....while ur in there..u can simply look outside and feel the life of the rich....the feeling was superb...i spent almost an hr in it...u get my drift..=P

P.S. and yes...u Suck M.A.Y!

My weekend retreat!! @ Leonie Studio

The greatest weekend ever! thanks to Cik Ahmad for the accomodations of his superb condo...the swimming pool was awesome...the fact that me an Azua swam at 10 at night...super quite..super relaxing...then ordered Pizza hut...took it to the 24 storey lounge and ate it with 360 degrees view of orchard...Subhanallah....the view...Talk a lot with my beloved cuzin about what has been happening to me lately....she keep on asking me to be strong and forget about things...sorry gal, i cried talking to u about things...And C. Ahmad gave me a Salvatore Ferragamore (incanto) Gift bag!!! thanks uncle!...he always gets this freebies from SIA..cause simply he's a chief steward..yeay! new parfume for me and some facial stuff!...Been a great and wonderful weekend Alhamdulillah.. If it's not for the break up..i think i wont enjoy this privilege...thanks Azua...appreciate it a lot from the bottom of my heart...and again im saying this... I love u....**winks**....Nevertheless...i will love to share some off the pics with u....others were just simply us cam hogging...so..i dare not put it up here..haha.. Enjoy!

My belove Cuzzie! Azua!

This is what 5 Days of not eating proof to be fatal...

View From The 20th Storey!

View of orchard from our room!

View of Orchard-Spot Marriot and Taka!

View Again...

Our Guest Room Extravaganza!

Trying to keep it tidy for a moment..ahakz!

Night View from The Toilet Balcony...yes...the toilet u saw in the room just now..has a balcony looking at this view..


My Cuzin tangkap Emo...

I tangkap Burung...


This is taken from the toilet bath tub...yes....while ur in there..u can simply look outside and feel the life of the rich....the feeling was superb...i spent almost an hr in it...u get my drift..=P


P.S. and yes...u Suck M.A.Y!

It won't be soon before long...

3 days i've been really down... Down with sickness of all sickness... i can't believe im facing this problem... it's even tough to write nowadays without shedding a tear.. The amount of it, god knows how much... astargfirullah.... When to the doctor and found out a lot of things about what illnesses im facing... She ended with a lot of advices, i just look at her with a blank face and nodded at every single word she said.. shocked perhaps... the medication for my heart seems to be helping... it's the so called perk me up, mood enlightenment pill that makes me hard to breath and the anxiety coming back.. 26 september i've to go for an X-tray... To check my pelvic area whether there's nothing wrong with my ovary and fellopian tube... Dear friends, please pray for me.. for only that i am hoping for... to be well again.. for now, i am crumbling...

The Dead Girl

you lie right there
so calm, so quiet
your heart has stopped
there is no riot

your hands- so soft
your face- so white
there's no more gasping
in the dark lonely night

your earrings on
only a position it stayed
when you used to laugh
it always swayed

your hair- so limp
no longer flowing
your heart is empty
no longger beating

your feet are still
they move no more
your cries have died
they no longer sore

you're far away
the war has ceased
and in god's arms
i hope you rest in peace...

Like a knife

"Like A Knife"

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.

Cause if I watch you go,You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.
Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

Seventh Day

Alhamdulillah...Praise to Allah the Lord of the worlds, the most gracious the most merciful...

Had a great day today... did my assigments.. and then cooked Sliced Fish Soup (Chinese Style) as commanded by the head Chef of the house (moi mum) haha...

Alhamdulillah had a lot of food on the table today for break fast... knowing that some of us doesn't have that privilege... After solat maghrib, mum and me decide to read Yaasin before we performed our I'syaa...Then we went to the mall to get some stuff for dad and i had chocolate chip mint ice cream! my personal favourite... All in all, today's a great day...

Question

I'm not asking for much, i'm done with him...

My Diploma FYP

Neuden (Dental Clinic)

Consultation Room

Dental Gallery


Reception Area




Looking back...thinking of the days i spent with my friends in school doing our last show for our diploma course. It's all worth the effort...

Finding Faith.

Ramadhan is a true blessing in disguise, i feel more serene and focus on what i really want to achieve in life. Having faith is essential.. it's like walking on earth with a covert guardian standing by your side whenever,wherever.

Project management yesterday was grandiose,tremendously outregeously in need of a lot of reading and researching.. makes me wonder whether im incapable of doing it..

In other not so important aspect of life, the enigma of being in companionship is still remain as an enigma. Dwelling upon the could haves and the would haves is emphatically senseless..
Oh wells...Move on!

Closure.

Today, I finally found closure...

ps.Too tired to type anything, will do it tomorrow...

Sick & Sicker

Went to school today, feel so sick i couldn't even walk properly...I thought the world was trying to play tricks with my vision...I was having heartburns i thought the sun rays penetrated through my chest...

Arrive at the sch library and listen to a redundant talk by the school librarians...my heart keep on chanting "come on already!".."come on already!"....and the lecture...i feel so shag i just want to go home... and the freaking thing is that i thought i got no class tomorrow but i freaking starting project management! The book is tremendously heavy that i swear u can kill a mocking bird with it... maybe just a mocked up bird...

Pop in a panadol with the extra kick to it... Feel like throwing up the piece of chicken part i ate...

The change is for myself and never for anyone else...I'm not Holy...and can everyone please stop being a pessimist....Damn!

Love's wound...

2nd day of the Ramadhan now...Alhamdulillah..everything is quite alright...

just one though, the wound..the fresh wound,though covered with dry blood...

Peeling pieces of it bit by bit...

Missing, just missing...

Missing the things we always do...

The jokes we shared, the straw game...

i really miss the straw game...

the Love?

just like a half empty jar, waiting for the heat to evaporate the other half...

slowly vanishing into thin air...

New Love?

Can someone please fill the freaking jar back again???

Well... i hope someone will...

I'm sorry but i guess we were not meant to be...

Photo credit flickr.com

Sajak lama..Bertemu alam baru..

A "sajak" i wrote for my friend during secondary school..


Purnama mengembang aruskan waktu...
kita bertemu berarah satu...
mengenali hidup,menimba ilmu...

Kau...Aku... telah lalu banyak liku...
Yang manis bagai madu..
Yang pahit tetap dikenang selalu...

Rahsiamu...Rahsiaku...
Rahsiaku...Rahsiamu...
Biar ia menjadi rahsia diri...
Di dalam ia kekal abadi...

Saat kita pergi...
Arah yang mungkin tidak seiringan lagi...
Satu ku pinta..Jangan kau lupa..
Persahabatan yang kita bina...

Aku berdoa agar kau berjaya...
Mungkin Belum hari ini...
Tetapi esok hari...

A promise...

A promise to him,
Is what it has been?
For love? For lust?
It's too abstract to be seen...

So there she goes living a dream
So blur, so vague it seems...

One day he changes everything,
Promise from him means nothing.
He changed her dreams, her love for him
And throws it all for his whim...

She knows it's not worth to cry,
People change and they too die,
Now she promise herself to do what's best
Forget the past and shall leave the mess...

On the day when she face her fear,
She must make something really clear,
Promise to human is something explicit,
Promise to oneself is something exquisite...

Written by Shai:
Year 2001

Sound of Joo Chiat (Work in progress) Exhibition

a picture with my classmates


looking at the projection


4 pieces of my artwork

Collage- peranakan tile style

The whole lot of them...

sketches of Joo Chiat.

For a Change...

Alhamdulillah...

Ramadhan is here again... manage not to sleep, haha... maybe excited to wake up for sahur.... nenek woke up at 4 and so i help her with the things and i finish eating by 4.30..so i slept afterwards and asked him to wake me up when azan arrived, thanks for doing it, appriciate it a lot...but ended sleeping again..haha..only to realise waking up at 6.30...performed my subuh and started reading the holy Qur'an for a while.. then, decide not sleep, realising i've to be in sch by 10..it's going to be a long day today...

Joo Chiat Opening Exhibition day today, will update the pics...

I pray to Allah s.w.t to give me strength & forgive my sins...